One day you wake up and see that there’s a new blog post on my blog, whether through Google Reader or as a follower of my Twitter page, then you sit down for lunch and realize… It’s gone… What happened? Who knows? I do, because I deleted it. Yes, I deleted it for one reason or another. If you really care you can ask me, but do it in person or else I might not respond. Despite this, I did feel it necessary to post something...
Given the fact that I’m not entirely sure what I’m writing about this could turn out to be really good or really terrible. I’d vote for the latter since, like a dog, if I have something to bark at I’ll stop when it’s gone, if I’m just barking for barking’s sake then I’ll do it until I’m tired. Fear not, it’s late and I’ve been tired since I had a big New York Style Pizza. How did I know it was New York Style? Because they had a map of the NYC subway on their wall, that’s how! What am I talking about? I don’t know! Remember the dog analogy?
Eventually I’ll find something to bark at and you’ll start getting interested I assure you…
What’s odd is that this use to be so easy while I was deployed. I could sit down and hammer out thoughts like a prisoner working on the license plate line. Now it seems like I struggle to find stuff to write about. I guess it’s like my regular conversation with people I haven’t seen in a while, say a couple months.
Me: “Hey, how’s it going?”
Them: “Pretty good, you?”
Me: “Good, it’s been a long time. What have you been up to?”
Them: ”Working…you?”
Me: “Uh, working…”
Seriously? We both know that we’ve been doing more than just working in the past couple months. Actually, I remember one time I ran into someone I hadn’t seen since high school and asked that same question and got that response. I was like… It’s been 10 years and ALL you’ve been doing is working? Man... You should really rethink your strategy on life.
While I was deployed even those conversations seemed to go differently. Maybe, having death looming over you makes you really think about elements of life that you otherwise wouldn’t, either that or boredom forces your brain to entertain itself by focusing on various things other than TV or Internet. By the way, have you tried Hulu? You really should, I like to watch network news and cooking shows on it. I like to make TV come to me on my time…
I think I’ve fallen victim to the very thing that pushed me out to the Middle East in the first place, the search for adventure. I hunted it like Ahab hunted Moby Dick. Luckily my ship didn’t sink.
Instead I caught the whale, came home and realized that nothing had changed. Now I tell stories like grandpa about my days as a Scan Eagle operator, not quite a serviceman and not quite a pilot either… Just one bad ass dude, 3 computer monitors and a whole lot of video. You know what’s funny, I still have 3 computer monitors and I still watch a lot of video, I’ll leave you to judge my level of bad ass…
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