Vitamin E

Is that the one you get from the sun that keeps you from getting all depressed in the winter time? Because that’s what I think I’m heavily deficient in. As much as I like the winter time, for all it’s snowy, cold, wonderousness I hate not seeing the sun. I blame daylight savings time for not giving me those critical few hours after work to bask in the glory of the all mighty provider of life to the little green organisms of our world. I’ve noticed this before in the past, oh so long ago… or was that just last year? You’d expect this to happen annually since winter comes every year.

I tend to eat more, want to take more naps and spend a lot more time at home being lame. Apparently, winter makes even the coolest people super lame. I tried going to the gym today, busted through about half of my workout before deciding that going through the last half was completely pointless. Actually in my defense I did ¾ of my workout, not just a half. I have good health to maintain after all, and a little sadness can’t stop that from happening. Imagine if I was one of those people who sprinted to the gym on January 3rd to work off that holiday weight gain, especially when I’m eating more anyway. Regardless of the need to stay in shape though, the gym didn’t help to make me feel any better.

On my way home I was thinking through things I could get to make myself a little more joyous but all I could come up with is a coffee, which I might still go out and get. But I doubt that’ll do anything. Maybe if I got like a Peppermint Caramel Mocha Latte instead of a black coffee I’d feel a little better, but I don’t know if I could live with myself. In the end I realized that what I needed to do is type a bunch of stuff and post it on my blog. That usually makes me feel better.

Sometimes I get a lot of negative things built up in my head and the only outlet I really like to use is my keyboard. It’s like each little key stroke is a little bit of sadness being absorbed through my fingers into my computer and after I’m done I usually feel a lot better. Most of the time this works, but there are times that it might not and I take that risk. I guess it’s not much of a risk since I like writing anyway.

You know what else makes me feel better? Mindlessly strumming my guitar, which I can’t play but I like the random noises it makes. String instruments have always had a special place in my heart, ever since I took violin lessons when I was younger. I guess it’s the same idea, the stress leaves my body through my fingers.

What if I combined my blog, with my guitar and a coffee? I think I’d be too happy to sleep tonight or would that just be the coffee? Tomorrow morning, if it’s not raining, I’m going to be running. Too bad, odds are, if it was supposed to rain the sun probably isn’t going to be anywhere in sight.

I should have been a bear…